I have to be honest, apart of me hasn't written in awhile because I returned back to work and have been extremely busy. But a bigger part of me hasn't written because of fear...yes, fear. FEAR TYE? What you talkin' 'bout Willis? Look, I am a child of the most High God, and I know that He hasn't given me the spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7) but in my flesh, there are times when I (like many of us) allow just a shadow of fear and doubt to appear. The victory at that point comes when you rebuke it as soon as you feel that spirit coming on, and not allowing it to take up residence...well, I allowed it to take up residence. It wasn't a continual residence but I did allow it to come; I would cry a little, then rebuke it...it would show up again, I would cry some more, and then rebuke it. TYE, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? Here's what I'm talking about...
I did a 3-day full day training from Tuesday to Thursday of last week (Aug 28th-30th) in order to get myself acclimated to the nuances of the upcoming school year, and to just become remotivated for what was on the horizon...I still felt and looked great. On Friday, I decided to go to my school for a full day in order to begin setting up my classroom. I was literally on my feet (I shared this with you) from 8am to 4pm in my classroom, and then had a hair appointment that night which ended up having me out from 8:30pm until 4:00am the next morning. When I got home, my feet were so swollen. I texted April and she said that it could have been a couple of things:
- she asked if I had been on my feet a lot...CHECK
- she said it could be water retention
She advised that I get some celery and juice it - this is good for water retention. She also said to drink water, and to listen to my body and REST! I haven't seen much rest since I've returned to work but am listening and going to bed (be it 7:30pm) when my body tells me too.
So the swelling had actually continued into this work week but what I didn't mention is that along with the swelling, a rash surfaced. Now I've gotten rashes throughout the course of my healing journey but it was more along the lines of a bite of some sort, which went away. Well, at one point it didn't appear that this rash was going to go away, it seemed like it was here to stay, and going to morph into those same kind of rashes that I would get when I was sick. Of course it didn't help that this was coinciding with my return to work and all I could think about was the fact that I would have to be out of work sick again - especially when I know my adminstrators are scared of this very thing as well. So, I allowed doubt and fear to cloud my mind (as Richard Smallwood mentions in his song "Faith"). I didn't tell anyone, I just kind of went through the motions on my own. My husband noticed my ankles swelling and became very concerned - this of course was the icing on an already doubtful and fearful cake. He just told me to be careful and not to overdo it. In fact, he was so concerned that he told me not to worry about my duties at home for a few months, and to only concentrate on work, so that I could rest when I needed to, and to take care of my health.
I reached out to April on yesterday to inform her that someone would be reaching out to her regarding detoxing. Being the sister that she is, she texted back, "oh OK. Are you okay? How are you feeling?" Well, I decided to share with her eveything that I had been experiencing the last week or so, and how I had been a little scared. This is what she texted back, and for anyone of you that has been folowing my blog thus far, this is very important:
"First things first...lets arrest fear. No matter what goes on with your body, you've come too far to deal with fear. I've been doing a lot of study lately with the emotional and spiritual root causes of disease. Did you know the rashes are rooted in fear, anxiety and stress? Many of us have surpressed fears and anxieties that manifest physically. So when one pops up ask yourself "what am I afraid of. What am I anxious about? What is causing me stress? Fluid retention also had the same spiritual root cause - fear, anxiety and stress. Glaucoma and asthma also share the same root cause."
This was a WOW moment for me because in my flesh I wanted to feel some type of way, but my spirit immediately kicked in and revealed to me that I did have some subconsious fears and things I was anxious about. I said that I was casting my cares all on Him, and truly believed that I was - I've been fasting and praying about some things since June - but I guess I've also been surpressing some things that have been coming to the surface all summer long and I didn't recognize the root. When I came to this revelation, this is what April said next:
"Well consider this: Faith and Fear cannot occupy the same space. Its easier said than done. You trusted God to heal you. You weren't afraid to stop your meds. You weren't afraid to try something new. Pull from that strength and faith and trust God to work on your behalf. Its out of your control and fear and anxiety WILL affect your health."
What an "AH HAH" moment that was. Wow! I believe that April may be walking into another gift (wink) but I truly thank God for her. WE all need friends like this - who aren't afraid to keep us in check, or to encourage us in the Lord and to remind us of what He says, and what He's already done. Satan is cunning and if we're not careful, we will revert right back to the place that God has delivered us from, and what kind of witness will that be? I'm thankful that even though I did allow fear and anxiety to cloud my healing for a week, in His mercy, God revealed His truth and allowed me to once again walk in His victory.
I AM HEALED..I AM HEALED...I AM HEALED...I AM HEALED...I AM HEALED...I AM HEALED
I asked God for it in 2008, He tested my faith on December 18, 2011, and healed my body in June of 2012. It's already done in the spirit and in the physical so I need to continue walking in this healing daily, and not allow anything that I physically see or experience to cloud this truth. "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." (Hebrews 11:1). God has already shown me what He will do if I have faith that He will do it. Therefore I'm going to continue walking in that faith.
Be encouraged...if you are on a healing quest and ready to be healed, stand on your "now faith" and take the first step to becoming medication free, worry free, pain free, and just FREE FREE. Visit April Chapman's website at www.basichealthylivingtoday.com and schedule yourself for a free 20 minute consultation. I believe she may still have some 20 minute slots available today. The direct link to the scheduling page is http://www.basichealthylivingtoday.com/products--services.html. Scroll down and find "Initial Consultation", click on "Free-Schedule Here".
I thank God for a friend in Jesus, who has allowed me to have a friend and sister like April. I hope that all of you will commit to your healing and know that when fear, doubt, and anxiety show up, so does sickness, defeat, and ultimately betrayal of the One that you know will get you through and not only get you through, but KEEP YOU THROUGH. God has not brought me this far to leave me, and I need to remember this and rebuke the hand of the enemy the second he shows up.
Be blessed.
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