I Feel My Help...my moment is over

OK, I know that some of you were very concerned for me last night, and I thank you for your encouraging words, and most of all your prayers.

Before I went to bed last night, my girl April hit me up via text message. Here is what she had to say:
It's been awhile. I read your blog. You know me. I shoot straight, here it goes. Just a thought to ponder: what are you expecting the rheumatologist and primary care doc to tell you that you already don't know? Why are you searching for answers that already lie within you? You've already seen and experienced the manifestation of healing first hand without the help of input from an extensive medical team. You already know that when your immune system is weak, your body will respond negatively. You've already learned how to keep your immune system strong - love God and others, eat right and avoid putting things in your body that don't serve you well. You already know which foods give you life and you learned which ones don't. Knowing is easy, doing is the hard part.

You are human and fear is a normal emotion but here's what you do: drive that fear into a small corner and refuse to let it conquer you. God is love. Embrace His love for you and it will cast out the fear. Follow His plan and use the knowledge you learned last to build up your body and your faith. Your immune system will react negatively if you allow the fear an opportunity to root.

I responded by saying:
Yeah you're right. I guess I'm again seeking the root. I don't get the rashes until I'm exposed to bug bites and/or the sun; now the joint pains again. I guess it all just caught me off guard.

She then replied:
I'm not going to lie to you...when the Bible says to "come out from among them", it really means it. Right now the world is set up in such a way that living a life of holiness is hard. We can't even eat like the world because when we do, eventually we will have to deal with the same mental and physical issues that they deal with. As always, I will be praying for you but I'm trying to figure out what purpose does visiting the "specialist" serve when you already know their drugs don't work and the outcome of their "test" will provide you with no road map to healing? It may provide a road map to treatment but I know that's not what you want.

She continued by saying:
That might be true however your immune system doesn't have a fighting chance to combat those things if you aren't feeding it what it needs to be strong.

Joint pain=inflammation=acidic...you know the drill.  

I answered by saying:
Sigh yup, back to the basics...back to doing what I know to do instead of letting this fear consume me, and pay needless co-pays to the docs. I always appreciate your encouragement and honesty; it's def been awhile. But God knows what you need and when you need it. Thank you as always.

She continued...
The inflammation is your body's way of getting your attention. Love you always.

I concluded with:
It def has my attention and now it's time to take back control. Thank you so much and I love you too.

With all of that being said, I am once again determined to walk in the healing that God has given me. I thank God for His unconditional and continual love for me; even when I doubt what He's done, because I somehow believe that when I mess up, He's going to strip me of His gifts, and that includes His healing virtue;  even when I choose to go my own may...God is faithful...He's merciful...He doesn't give and take away as the world does. I love Him and thank Him just for who He is.

It's time to get back to juicing, nutri-bulleting, and all of that basic stuff that God required in the beginning of my healing. 


I'M BACK Y'ALL..."weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning" (Psalms 30).

It's morning! TO GOD BE ALL OF THE GLORY!

Can I Be Honest?

First and foremost I need to acknowledge that I know my God can, has, and will do exceedingly, abundantly, above all we can ask or think. The very fact that this blog exists, and the content of it exists, is testimony of this. However, I need to be honest about some things...

I haven't written in a few days for a number of reasons but the main one is because of this: 

Sigh...I have another rash and the joints in my hands hurt. Now, when I went to Florida a couple of weeks ago, I got bit by mosquitoes, and those bites morphed into the same kinds of rashes associated with the auto immune disease. Thankfully, those rashes have faded away.

Now what does this all mean to me? I'm not sure. I can honestly admit though that I'm scared - now of course I know the Word, and I know that, "God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind" (2 Timothy 1:7), but in my flesh, I am fearful. I learned through my Joyce Meyer devotional that fear is human, but that I need to have the courage to persevere. I get that. 

This is where I'm at now...when I'm stressed or nervous or fearful, I usually bite my nails. My nails were looking a bit scary (there goes that word again) so I made a conscious decision to no longer bite. So what's the next step? I eat for comfort. Yup! So during this detox, I've cheated the last 3 days by eating chicken and salmon because I'm just in a bad place. I literally balled my eyes out last night (shaking, snotting and everything) and my husband had to comfort, hold, and console me, until I went to sleep...this is how bad it was.

See, I've been standing on the fact that I'm healed and I know and believe that God did something miraculous in me; He answered my prayer. So the symptoms were taken away but we never got to the root. I believe that this time around, I need to have the courage to see this thing through to the end, and come to the root of what's really going on. Am I willing to take medicine? No! But I will undergo more tests in order to get to the bottom of things this time around.

THANK GOD FOR CHURCH TODAY! I cried for most of the beginning of service, but I thank God for touching me and allowing me to feel His presence.

I am in pain just typing this post but I BELIEVE GOD! He didn't bring me this far to leave me. He will complete what He started. MY TESTIMONY WILL BE SURE and GOD WILL BE GLORIFIED.

See...I'm used to suffering in silence, putting on "the face", and just going through with me and God. My husband wouldn't even have known what I was dealing with, had it not hit me while I was laying down, that I was actually having joint pains again. I felt depression coming on...I felt hopeless for a moment...BUT GOD!

I've shared my darkest moments on this blog, as well as my highest victories, so me sharing this with you is not that rare. I only hope that it speaks to the fact that I am human, and that I may be coming to a harsh reality, but I'm going to be courageous and get through it. "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHICH STRENGTHENETH ME" (Philippians 4:13). 

I will make an appointment with my primary care physician tomorrow and rheumatologist in order to get blood work taken, and we'll go from there.  In the meantime, I will continue to keep you posted, will pray that I will truly give this to God, and not continue to resort to my bad habits. I hope that I can stick with the detox to the tea because I am very capable of this.

Oh...on a good note, I walked 4 miles on Saturday morning WHOO HOO! And I'm going walking with my aunt in the morning ;-))))))

Sigh...I will get through this WITH GOD'S HELP! 

Talk to you soon ;-)

Another Successful Day

Good evening all,

Today was my 2nd detox day and a successful one. This time around I haven't checked my weight or taken any pics, I'm just concentrating on completing each day successfully.

I went for most of the day without a headache until this evening but yup...got one now and it's no joke. I have to juice me some carrots, parsley, and apple like I used to...instant headache remover. Yes, sounds like a plan for tomorrow.

Well, that's all for now. Stay cool and hydrated as it's a heat wave out there.

Sayonara (I believe that's how you spell it).

Good night :-)

It's Been Awhile

Hellllllllo World!

Wow! It's been so long since I've written where should I begin?! I guess I'll start by filling you in on what's been going on since I last wrote:

• I am still in great health PRAISE GOD! 
• I detoxed again since I last wrote and was only able to complete 10 of the 20 days. I'm not sure if it's because I was pretty much still clean on the inside or what it was, but my body waved the white flag of surrender and I had to oblige.
• I have continued to maintain my diet of no beef or pork but did incorporate some chicken and turkey from time to time.
• I have not had any rashes or joint pain UP UNTIL my trip to Florida last week. I was eaten alive by mosquitoes and that combined with the Florida sun... and voila...rashes returned, grew, are still there, but seem to be fading away THANK GOD. However, the joints in my hands began to hurt so yup...I'm detoxing again. My body was kind of telling me that it was once again time (I try to keep up with the seasonal cleanse of every 3 months or so).
• Now...remember when I said that I haven't eaten beef or pork? Well, now I must confess. We had a cookout this past Saturday for the June and July babies (and my birthday was June 22nd...happy belated to me ;-) and my mother-in-law made these BANGIN' PORK RIBS on the grill. Because I knew I was detoxing starting today, I indulged a little...well, A LOT! I ate everything that wasn't nailed down and IT WAS GOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!

Those of you that have followed my blog know that I love to walk and often walk 3-4 miles a day. Well, my husband and I moved to a new area and...well...let's just say that I have to be a little more careful then what I had been doing. Where we lived previously, I would get up at the crack of dawn or evening, walk, and would have no problemos. So naturally I thought this would be the case in our new place...not so much. I got up one morning at about 5:45am, the sun light had just begun to shine on the world. I took a deep breath in and out (uhhhhhhhhh.....ahhhhhhhhh) and proceeded to mind my business and walk. My husband always complained about me listening to my music because he said that I'm not alert SO ON THIS DAY I only put one ear bud in my ear. MAKING A LOOOOONNNNG STORY SHORT, I began to walk and saw 2 gentlemen (one darker in hue and one lighter) standing on the corner. 

   Before I even got to them, the lighter of the two taps the darker of the two and says..."how about    her?"

   The darker of the two looks at me, nods his head, and smiles.

   Me being the polite lady that I am, as I walked past I said, "good morning".

I can't remember if they spoke or not. MY RADAR WAS ON AND I JUST BEGAN TO PRAY.

The next thing that I know, the darker of the two gentlemen pull up in a white SUV and asks if I need a ride. At first I pretended to be listening to my music and ignored them. But something quickly told me that I better let this person know that I am FULLY AWARE OF MY SURROUNDINGS AND OF WHAT'S GOING ON. So I tell him no thank you and keep it moving. I guess he detected some defensiveness in my voice and says something like, "you don't have to get an attitude, I saw you walking and just asked if you needed a ride, that's all." I thanked him again, said no thank you, and kept walking. He turns the corner and stops. The Holy Spirit in me told me to RUN! Now, thankfully, I was still a pretty fast runner and when he stopped and got out of his vehicle to follow me, I WAS OUT LIKE A FLASH OF LIGHTNING! Let 's just put it this way, I lost him, he couldn't find me, and my husband has forbidden me from walking.

Now...in my last paragraph I said that I was still pretty fast at the time. I said this because, me being the type of teacher that I am, when we have field day, I like to get down and dirty with my students. So...they've been wanting to race me all school year long because they have heard how fast their teacher is. Not to toot my own horn (toot toot) but I used to run track, and am fast; I even raced a bunch of 8th graders in years past and beat them WITH 4 INCH HEELS ON! Anyway, I told my kids that I was retired from running and I should have been a woman of my word and stuck with this. But NOOOOOOO! 

      I say, "hey! Who wants to race Mrs. Hilbert?!"

      Of course ALL OF MY 3RD GRADERS hands went up in the air so I raced                 them and won of course.         

      But I had to have a smart one of the bunch say, "I mean Mrs. Hilbert, you are       fast, but I still think I can beat you."

      Me...blank stare..."come on, let me shut you up once and for all!".

So what does Mrs. Hilbert do? She races him, of course down the playground AND back. I WON! He shuts up, I think I'm fine until it was time to walk back into the school. See...for some reason, I had to kick my knee into place a few times because something just wasn't right. But the real test came when I got home. Ok...there was no test, I just plain couldn't walk. I took a bath in Epson Salt and then my husband rubbed my knee down with Max-Freeze. I even slept with it elevated. I woke up the next morning and was doing what I have coined as The Hilbert Hobble. Make a long story short, I sprained the ligament in my knee that keeps the knee together and was out of work for 2 days. Yup! Don't get it twisted (which is probably what I did to my knee) I am still fast and my whole class learned a brand new dance called The Hilbert Hobble. One of these days I'll post the video so that you can learn the dance yourself.

Whooooooo! I think we're all caught up now...ok...so I had a successful first day of detoxing with the exception of a massive headache but that's ok.

It's been good filling you in on everything and I hope to reach back out tomorrow.

Toodles for now