OK, I know that some of you were very concerned for me last night, and I thank you for your encouraging words, and most of all your prayers.
Before I went to bed last night, my girl April hit me up via text message. Here is what she had to say:
It's been awhile. I read your blog. You know me. I shoot straight, here it goes. Just a thought to ponder: what are you expecting the rheumatologist and primary care doc to tell you that you already don't know? Why are you searching for answers that already lie within you? You've already seen and experienced the manifestation of healing first hand without the help of input from an extensive medical team. You already know that when your immune system is weak, your body will respond negatively. You've already learned how to keep your immune system strong - love God and others, eat right and avoid putting things in your body that don't serve you well. You already know which foods give you life and you learned which ones don't. Knowing is easy, doing is the hard part.
You are human and fear is a normal emotion but here's what you do: drive that fear into a small corner and refuse to let it conquer you. God is love. Embrace His love for you and it will cast out the fear. Follow His plan and use the knowledge you learned last to build up your body and your faith. Your immune system will react negatively if you allow the fear an opportunity to root.
I responded by saying:
Yeah you're right. I guess I'm again seeking the root. I don't get the rashes until I'm exposed to bug bites and/or the sun; now the joint pains again. I guess it all just caught me off guard.
She then replied:
I'm not going to lie to you...when the Bible says to "come out from among them", it really means it. Right now the world is set up in such a way that living a life of holiness is hard. We can't even eat like the world because when we do, eventually we will have to deal with the same mental and physical issues that they deal with. As always, I will be praying for you but I'm trying to figure out what purpose does visiting the "specialist" serve when you already know their drugs don't work and the outcome of their "test" will provide you with no road map to healing? It may provide a road map to treatment but I know that's not what you want.
She continued by saying:
That might be true however your immune system doesn't have a fighting chance to combat those things if you aren't feeding it what it needs to be strong.
Joint pain=inflammation=acidic...you know the drill.
I answered by saying:
Sigh yup, back to the basics...back to doing what I know to do instead of letting this fear consume me, and pay needless co-pays to the docs. I always appreciate your encouragement and honesty; it's def been awhile. But God knows what you need and when you need it. Thank you as always.
She continued...
The inflammation is your body's way of getting your attention. Love you always.
I concluded with:
It def has my attention and now it's time to take back control. Thank you so much and I love you too.
With all of that being said, I am once again determined to walk in the healing that God has given me. I thank God for His unconditional and continual love for me; even when I doubt what He's done, because I somehow believe that when I mess up, He's going to strip me of His gifts, and that includes His healing virtue; even when I choose to go my own may...God is faithful...He's merciful...He doesn't give and take away as the world does. I love Him and thank Him just for who He is.
It's time to get back to juicing, nutri-bulleting, and all of that basic stuff that God required in the beginning of my healing.
I'M BACK Y'ALL..."weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning" (Psalms 30).
It's morning! TO GOD BE ALL OF THE GLORY!
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